You are in Kyoto now. you mentioned that you won't like to go there, but anyway i wish you a nice trip and a good time in the upcoming journeys during your break.
i started to miss you already. you turned your back and walked away that night after we waved. your figure became smaller over seconds, and smaller and smaller. you emerged in the air and disappeared. You have so real a personality but you are also so spiritual that i sometimes cannot imagine that you are a real human being. you are just special, and important.
Am i going to meet you soon? What if i encountered problems and frustrations in life later, can i receive your support? how can i? what excuses should i make in order to see you and meet you? oh please do not go away from me. please don't. i just cannot bear it. i believe we shall meet and be good friends. i believe.
i just damn chicken to give you the already written letter which i spent several hours reading, re-reading and re-reading. but i just have not handed it to your hand. i was thinking about whether that letter would be too serious. it's a temporary break not a life-long one, yes? yes. don't make things too complicated and too serious, yes i should tell myself. i shall write you a letter when i graduate, for that i have a better excuse in doing so. yes.
oh i missed you already. i wish you everything well.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Monday, December 14, 2009
the Closer
oh i did not expect that i could dine with YOU.
you sat at my opposite so that i could look at you quietly. i was completely satisfied. for long i have not had the feeling of being filled, and during that two hours something i tasted it, finally. oh i should thank you, for inviting me and sharing with me those hours. you looked so charm, do you know that? you are so real a flesh and soul! oh what a soul! if only i am a bit like you.
i wish you a wonderful time on your leave, take a nice break, meet friends, refresh your mind and come back. i believe we will meet at some points in life. i believe in it.
you sat at my opposite so that i could look at you quietly. i was completely satisfied. for long i have not had the feeling of being filled, and during that two hours something i tasted it, finally. oh i should thank you, for inviting me and sharing with me those hours. you looked so charm, do you know that? you are so real a flesh and soul! oh what a soul! if only i am a bit like you.
i wish you a wonderful time on your leave, take a nice break, meet friends, refresh your mind and come back. i believe we will meet at some points in life. i believe in it.
Monday, December 7, 2009
Getting Closer
The last day that i am able to see you is just inches away, the day after tomorrow.
i am going to watching you at far. The same situation as ususal. seeing you looking at the screen, looking at the speaker. This time i expect you will be much excited about teh speaker than ever. you knew her well. I expect to see you smile a lot, which is great. I love your smile. I can also see you picking up a red pen, jotting some note, a sentence or two on a paper. can also see you fixing your legs to an interesting pose. This is you. This is the images of you in my eyes, for so many times.
am i able to talk to you after the speech. i know they will have a chance to dine with you, and i? i sometimes want to know what you really think about me, do you think i am special? i am different? like what i think about you? or it is not important indeed, you are my learning model in anyway. am i going to give you a letter? it is good way of expressing my feeling on you? there are questions, questions and, questions. Yet better finish my ZH in the first place and use two hours in dark to think about these questions.
i am going to watching you at far. The same situation as ususal. seeing you looking at the screen, looking at the speaker. This time i expect you will be much excited about teh speaker than ever. you knew her well. I expect to see you smile a lot, which is great. I love your smile. I can also see you picking up a red pen, jotting some note, a sentence or two on a paper. can also see you fixing your legs to an interesting pose. This is you. This is the images of you in my eyes, for so many times.
am i able to talk to you after the speech. i know they will have a chance to dine with you, and i? i sometimes want to know what you really think about me, do you think i am special? i am different? like what i think about you? or it is not important indeed, you are my learning model in anyway. am i going to give you a letter? it is good way of expressing my feeling on you? there are questions, questions and, questions. Yet better finish my ZH in the first place and use two hours in dark to think about these questions.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
You Are Inside Me
questioning. questioning and, questioning.
two things in my mind at the moment. One is closer, just a few days later. I want to give you a letter that embedded much love, including thank, wishing for your near future and thank and thank. I do not know how many times of thank i should say or write to really thank you. You have done so much for me and on me. How could i give back? in what ways can i give back? i know you do not ask for it, but i promise i at lease work hard and improve to thank you for your love.
Second is a question on future. recently i have tasted a bit more on this field. fun but confusing. One has no voice when one is not on the top, this is the main thing that i notice. The one on the top also is cruel to the lower people in some ways, regardless if it is intended. I have a clear idea of going to the top in order to order, but also have a confusion whether i would become one that i do not like who execute cruelty to others, once i am on the top.
oh if only you are with me all the time. If only we are very close friend so beside admiring you, i can also talk to you freely on whatever topics in whatever ways.
two things in my mind at the moment. One is closer, just a few days later. I want to give you a letter that embedded much love, including thank, wishing for your near future and thank and thank. I do not know how many times of thank i should say or write to really thank you. You have done so much for me and on me. How could i give back? in what ways can i give back? i know you do not ask for it, but i promise i at lease work hard and improve to thank you for your love.
Second is a question on future. recently i have tasted a bit more on this field. fun but confusing. One has no voice when one is not on the top, this is the main thing that i notice. The one on the top also is cruel to the lower people in some ways, regardless if it is intended. I have a clear idea of going to the top in order to order, but also have a confusion whether i would become one that i do not like who execute cruelty to others, once i am on the top.
oh if only you are with me all the time. If only we are very close friend so beside admiring you, i can also talk to you freely on whatever topics in whatever ways.
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