take care

please take care dear.

i don't know i can still write to you after the last email. feeling wonderful to have constantly received your letter. though they are just a few lines, i already feel the warmth surroungding me. maybe your leave at the moment is a good thing for me. you seems a little bit less stressful than before so that you can ahve a little more time to consider my extra info to you and of course more time to take care of yourself. if you are not on leave, i bet we won't be able to maintain those talks on mails. please please take care of yourself. i hope you are enjoying your life and hope we can keep contact till we can't.

Struggle

two paths that i want to go in the future: project and research. what am i going to do? am i going to be a curator? if yes, then start knowing how art projects can be run is a good way. but am i going to be a scholar? teaching students like you, inspiring them and changing their lives like you? if yes, then research is a need, for i can use the learned skills to pursue further in studies and that i may have a chance to engage in intellectual teaching. can i be as good?

Very Fast

my heart's beating very fast that morning, after seeing a new message in my inbox. that was your reply. i feel that you are a tad different now. you are released. i saw this from your words. you normally did not reply message with extra messages, but this time you shared some additional emotions on the letter. i felt wonderful to know that, and you know what, they were beautiful language, i must learn how to write such stylish language. you are in every part my model.